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Part 3
Very strange and
creepy indigestible spiritual questions loom and dissipate. Only God can
protect me.
Six months ago, strangely, at about five o'clock. Mid-August,
early in the morning, I awoke and looked up and down at my body in
bed. My feet were floating above my feet; two sets of , one above, one below.
I was leaning up, waist bent, staring, feeling my whole body tingling,
vibrating and I thought, more in fear than in awe; "That's what happens ate
death?!!" My next unformed thought was that I had to stop this; I didn't want
to die. But I fell into a deep sleep and awakened later, exhausted, not
remembering.
That night, before dinner, Susan told me that my whole
body had "shook without my seeing any appendage twitching" enough to wake her,
a sound sleeper, the night before. I told her my early morning remembrance and
I realized that these interdimensional thieves were stealing my astral body or
"soul" and I felt deeply religious, frightened and aware of my "essence", not
my body, that I had discovered valuable to these entities.
How could
such a thing happen or be allowed to happen, in God's universe? How can I
explain their invisible , intrusive and harassing motives behavior and
tactics? How can I resist without invoking 'revenge' or anger from these
unseen thieves of body and soul? Who can I possible talk to about these
assaults, nightmares, nosebleeds, dreams, and poltergeist -like experiences?
Who could understand or advise me? Only another "abductee" or "experiencer"
who has successfully resisted the evil of psychic or spiritual
attacks.
Wednesday - February
"And forgive us our
trespassers as we forgive those who transgress against us" In the middle of
playing bass guitar, at four in the afternoon, the radio on in the background,
a feeling of sudden anxiety, free and floating, smacked me, making my stomach
tight and my fear lever climb.
I closed my eyes in sudden panic. In my
mind's eye, three small blue - grey entities, stood at the door, inside,
watching me. The "leader" "intruding" into my psyche or mind, usurping,
'taking control', causing anxiety; (as an intuitive approach signal, I
recognized).
I ordered them out, putting the guitar down, shutting off
the stereo and amp and mentally ordered them out!! Out!! Out !! Out!! I was
swept with their raw surprise; two left; evaporated, one, amazed, reluctant,
lingered.
I recited the Lord's prayer and struggled, inwardly, to
resist, ordering him out even as he hesitated repeatedly. It took five long
minutes, minutes that seemed longer before the anxiety; i.e. the mental
intrusion and I felt alone. But I wasn't. I went into the kitchen to boil
water for tea, leaving the room, turning my back, my mind away form the
feelings in the living room when a word, in my mind, emblazoned, looming
appeared, in letters large and capital. "BEREAVEMENT". With my eyes open, the
words hung in space, as an afterimage.
Were they sad I had resisted?
Tough shit!! I thought. Would they make me grieve in nightmares, cry
heartbreaking tears? What did it mean? Bad dreams? In four days I was on a
plane booked at a hotel to attend my father -in - law's funeral in Florida.
Both the airfare and hotel rates were listed as "BEREAVEMENT" rates on both
receipts.
As well as being invisible they can see into the future and
tell, warn us of it as suits them. But it seemed as if it were a 'slap', a
rebuke, to have been told in such a cryptic stilted and intrusive off-handed
way. It was the 'word' as much a response to my rejection of them as it was
information. And most importantly it, the "WORD" strongly confirmed that
anxiety IS a symptom that intuitively alerts me that the psychic intrusion,
inference is happening. If the word hadn't appeared, I would not be sure that
a wave of free-floating anxiety means they're already HERE and INSIDE. I was
never really sure before. The word "BEREAVEMENT" confirms that I was right.
If I can fight "them" in the first initial stages I can resist more
completely. But how can you fight something you can't see? They change
tactics, redouble their efforts and make one pay heavily for resistance.
They're addicted to abduction and also have access to interdimensional
creatures, who do their bidding. Fight? Resist?
My analogy is one of
cows grazing in a world - wide pasture. They are simply cows who eat grass
under God's blue sky and don't acknowledge or analyze because they're only
cows. But they love life and God and his skies and his
grasses.
Occasionally, something odd, bizarre; an experience of high
strangeness occurs; the farmer comes and milks the cows. Most pay no attention
as the are just cows who eat grass and, the experience happens when they are
asleep or dully unaware. The few (smart) cows who do resent the episodic
intrusion who are aware of the subtle meddling, kick over the pail and spill
the milk. They may even threaten the farmer himself.
For these cows,
the farmer does not return; instead, he sends in the 'butcher' for these cows.
The 'butcher' is an evil, punishing entity, (interdimensional) who
"MEDVED", "comes in the night" gives illnesses, infections, pains, organ
disease, death, in bidding retribution for the abducting, but now thwarted
entities, who resent resistance, in any form.
Tuesday -
February
I often wonder, when at air terminals, awash in crowds, or at
a ballgame, how, seemingly unaware "bovines are being "milked", or whether how
many are truly troubled, aware of nighttime 'visitors'. How many people,
thronged in diverse pursuits know? How many merely suspect? The accumulated,
slow built 'evidence' suddenly looms as obvious as a trout in the milk. But
would cows recognize a trout in the milk?; most would go on to chew grass
under God's blue skies and deny the subtle, spiritual interference as a 'bad
dream', or their imagination.
There is electrical interference with the
T.V., bands of static and white noise, every few seconds on all the channels,
like someone is broadcasting, nearby, on all frequencies! Ticks and knocks are
heard in the walls; laying in bed, in the darkness, I hear a soft but clear
footfalls in the attic and on the roof, paddling. The floorboards red and
termite ridden, creak and pop as unseen entities walk by my footboard, as I
toss anxiously; try hard to ignore the sounds, telling myself "How can they
just walk unseen, through walls and doors yet have enough seeming weight of
specific gravity to hear them make the floor creak?" begin to pray, trying to
mentally resist, calmly now, over and over telling them to go: "Be gone,
unclean, evil spirit. Leave me alone, the power of Christ, himself, the Blood
of the Martyrs, God, himself, orders you to leave."
-over and over -
I close my eyes, aware that anger, fear; all negative emotions are
food to them. My repulse must be totally positive.
I try to think of
them as marauding intrusive raccoons who stumble, motives unclear, into a
trespass situation.
There are some who sat the entities forfeit. Their
right to "no attack", physically when they intrude, but they never materialize
even when I know they're PRESENT, physically, I cannot see them. Sometimes a
quick moving shadow or a flash of lights, (as though traffic could reverberate
lights into a room with the blinds shut), is what I imagine I see. (They
either "cloak" the area of their presence, or being at a higher intelligence
and vibration level (not higher morals) they are simply invisible.) But
they're THERE.
Outside of pictures of aliens I've (thankfully)not
remembered seeing one ever. Perhaps I just keep my eyes closed and that
explains the general "blackness" surrounding vivid abduction memories,
dreamlike in quality.
"SLEEP!" "SLEEP!"
A hooded grey stands,
tall, by the bed: "GO BACK TO SLEEP - DO NOT AWAKEN" forces my mind to resume
dreaming. I am in blackness.
When I awake, bereft of memories, tired, I
swing my legs over the bedside to reach the floor, and open my eyes.
A
voice, in my head, not my own, but much like my own says:
"Time to
activate"
That stops me cold as I rise. "Time to activate"?? That's
hardly my jargon, word-salad, choice of words to describe starting another
day;
"Time to activate" chills me as,(forgive me), EGO - ALIEN to
my thought processes. Here again, I'm left to wander, "What does it mean?"
What? (I left as though a "walk -in" has occurred into my mind psyche; an
interloper -possessing - entity. I refuse the thought; I don't feel any
differently.) But that sentence is so strange it haunts me days,
later.
"Time to activate"
Am I being monitored? Controlled? It
sure feels like "Time to activate" could be their jargon relating to the
stoppage of oversleep pattern into the consciousness. Or is it replete with
psychic or bodily conscious monitoring?
"Time to
activate"
Activate what?!
What does it mean?!
I feel as
though my inviolatible rights; rights over my body and spirit, have been
repeatedly violated.
March - 1999 Just before going to bed I heard
footfalls creaking the floorboards by the closet door. I close my eyes and
mentally recite the Lord's prayer. A vision of a naked woman is flashed into
my mind; heavy -set, voluptuous. As I examine it, eyes closed, I realize that
the image is imposed on me for mental intrusion. I reject the image and try to
see Jesus' face, or the 'Sacred Heart' of love that God has for mankind.
A white macabre mask of "Scream"; the phantom mask, mouth agape, eyes
grimacing looms into my mind. I recognize that, it too, has been imposed,
forced on me, to possibly scare me or answer my thoughts. I turn over in bed,
eyes closed and reject , pityingly and with contempt, the attempt to startle
me, holding a scornful, condescending, judgmental , disapproval of the
entities efforts, I hold the thought of how ridiculous, paltry and ineffective
the attempt at intrusion is.
I drift into sleep, confidently holding
those thoughts against the entities and trust to God and my spirit guides to
protect me while I sleep.
"St. Michael, Archangel of all angels, who
defended God in Heaven, against the Devil, I call upon you now to defend us in
battle against the Devil, whom I rebuke, and with God's help, send him to
Hell, along with dark spirits who walk the Earth seeking to destroy men's
souls. Amen."
"God, although I am not worthy, send me a guardian angel
to protect me from evil; I ask God to surround me, wrap me, in a bubble of
divine grace and light to protect my soul and body from being tampered
with.
I ask that this white light of God's Grace and protection come
into my soul to cleanse and purify it. I send out all my negativity, through
this white light, like so much dark smoke, hurting no one. And I ask that God
protects me in this white light, all day and especially, when I sleep, at
night. Please God, protect me this day and every night. Amen."
"St.
Lucy, patron saint of blindness, give me vision to sense the invisible, to see
into the darkness, to raise both my arms, in defense, against the darkness and
to have the light, divine light, protect me against interdimensional,
invisible beings, who mean me ill."
I drift off, into an uneasy sleep.
. If you BELIEVE strongly, that you are protected, somehow, they'll leave you
alone. Why? Presence of mind is our greatest weapon; the ridicule factor, is
their best 'defense'. Who, in one's 'right mind' can one even discuss these
things with?
Paper is indeed much more patient than people. When
did things get worse?
It started at 8:00 P.M., Saturday December 2,
1995, after a series of 22 ice storms that we in New York sustained that
winter. The ground crunched under my feet on icy snow-covered sidewalks,
and there was totally thick overcast overhead. (Old temperature about 30o, and very
little wind)
I glanced up overhead, coming into my backyard pantry
door, and dropped my groceries and stood, arms akimbo, staring up at a strange
but not yet disturbing or revealing sight. Overhead, a clean, crisp hole was
cut into the overcast, revealing bright stars. It was as though a cookie-cutter
had sliced a clean mile-circular hole, into the cloud cover above.
Everywhere else was thickly overcast, but almost at zenith was a perfect
circle of clearing. What looked like a red child's balloon floated into view,
a bright red against the stars and outlined blackness. The red balloon
stopped, joined by two more, which joined the first.
All three balloons
hung red, overhead, stopped, in the center of the 'hole'. As I stared at
neck-breaking zenith, puzzled at their not drifting, three more floated into
view, at the rear of the growing formation, a flotilla, of red balloons.
All hung motionless overhead as I felt a sense of awe grow; my mouth
fell open with raw wonder. As one more joined, slowly from the rear,
assembling North to South, overhead, a group of Seven escaped red- children's
balloons, hovered in the center of a blackness with bright stars, cut into a
heavy cloud cover. What were they? Balloons drift with the wind; they're not
migrating, hovering birds; what are they!?
I stared in wonder, awe
tingling my forehead, stomach and arms. Their color changed from bright red to
light lavender purple, all together, all at once. Quickly, like minnows in a
pond, they peeled off in pairs, from West to East, heading toward Montauk, and
were gone in several seconds leaving the hole overhead; twinkling with stars;
empty. I am convinced that this "sighting" has everything to do with my
spiritual and mental experiences of high strangeness.
Did they climb
down the ladder of my awe to find me? Or is it that my "sighting' was no
'accident'?
Which one came first, the chicken or the egg? Maybe, it was
the farmer that came first. Was that 'circle' for their needing visibility, or
for me, needing visibility?
These meddling, harassing, unseen entities
may be, in fact, the occupants of those 'crafts' I stared at. I cannot be
truly alone; they must be many; like me; aware, resistant, troubled, and
amazed.
If nothing else, these 'critters' have renewed wonder, in my
life; the sense of AWE and faith; faith that the spirit world does, indeed,
exist, and not only for malevolent entities. They've also destroyed the
actuality and concept, itself, of getting a "good night's sleep." Sleep is now
replete with danger and loss of control; consciousness and my astral body
wander, unknowing, while I sleep, among beasities and monsters.
My
parents always told me, when I awoke from childhood nightmares that monsters
did not exist, not real ones. But they were wrong.
I was always taught;
then, reasonably; that there was nothing in the darkness that wasn't already
there in the daylight. They were wrong again. So with the newfound, long lost,
sense of faith and awe comes fear of the nighttime; the seeming primetime for
bedroom visitors' activities.
How do they 'vibrate' a 'soul' out of a
body? (Why bother?) You could simply take a sleeping body. What are they
up to? Where do they come from?
The human mind- brain is a powerful
tool, perhaps it can repulse their efforts if I focus.
I am always
residually amazed at their psychic-mind-controlling powers; powers that seem
easy enough to unleash on people, during the daylight hours, not just when
they're dreaming, wrapped in self-delusional images. (They seem to "enter"
psychically, when one is in an altered state of awareness; hypnosis-like, as
when one is driving or watching television; when "presence of mind" is
altered, in some way. But sleeptime is commando tactics time, for
them.
I thank God and my oversoul that I have rejected anxiety, as a
constant companion, in my life, and now recognize its sudden, free-floating
presence as the signature symptom of psychic intrusion.
What a
revelation, for me, personally; I must avoid evoking anxiety, by life
situations, poor decisions, family disagreements, and calmly trust in a loving
God, no matter what hardships occur; so that I can recognize the EGO-ALIEN
wave, flash of gutbusting anxiety that signals me that they are "arrived" and
already (partially) "inside".
March 1999
I have been visited by
the "Butcher."
Since I began resistance, I've been plagued with
multiple, concurrent mouth infections that required general anesthesia and
surgery; and now just a month later, my internist has confirmed " I can feel
your gut coming through; it's definitely a hernia."
(Pain in both sides
of my groin area may mean a Double procedure). They mean business. (I am
convinced that a good hypnotist is needed to give me unconscious protective
techniques to serve me when I am unconscious, (asleep). (Can they 'infect'
or 'rip' astral frequencies to ruin the body's health?) God.
I am
tempted to stop all psychic resistance and willingly relent if they will HEAL
me, big-time; rather than watch my peripheral health slowly disintegrate, as
I resist.
Their 'demon-like' qualities were reflected in a peculiar
incident, one afternoon, as I was reading; Celtic-Irish accounts of
'elementals', 'earth-spirits' and 'fairies', who culturally bothered,
harassed, visited, and abducted innocent people.
A thought came to me;
"These aliens, these psychic-vampires are historically like indigenous
cockroaches; culturally, they've been 'intrenched' everywhere, and as
cockroaches, seek as 'unwanted, unclean, vermin dangerous to one's health!!" -
Celtic folklore.
I was sitting in the same wooden chair, I am writing
this now; seated at a table inlaid with floral-inlaid tile; my chair inches
away from a wall where a Remington Western print and Paul Klee print hang. I
got up, turned to rise and saw a monstrous, sedentary winged adult female
cockroach, shiny in three fully inches of oily, resilient insect, on the wall,
inches behind my recently moved head. I realized the potential for shock,
panic, disgust, horror, fear, revulsion; infestation anxiety (we are cockroach
free); that those uncontrolled, negative feelings would feed the entity either
in satisfaction or pure psychic energy. I controlled myself.
I walked
over to the sink, breathing calmly, controlling my heartbeat and emotions, and
in mild surprise and a modest sense of awe, at their seeming ability to pluck
a creature I'd been thinking about interdimensionally, and respond to a mere
unspoken thought, obviously monitored and appropriately, albeit evilly,
responded to; I got a handful of towel- tissue, grabbed and drenched tight the
enormous sexually mature cockroach and tossed the wad into the garbage pail,
calmly.
Laconically, I thought "It's a good thing I didn't think of
charging rhinos!"
The point is their omnipresent insidious, evil, mind-
reading presence; I'd much rather be infested by cockroaches, than demons who
can pull cockroaches out of thin air to make a point. The point is, Evil:
they're in control and are telepathic in nature.
The Christians were
right, about "sin"; not the Jews. The Jews say "sin" is an act; not a thought.
(One can think about homosexuality, murder, theft, rape, but only the Act is
sinful; one must not act upon one's evil ideas). The Ten Commandments speak
only to overt acts, not thoughts. So does the U.S. law. The Christians believe
God reads what is in the soul, or the mind, to know the inner 'sinner'. The
evil is in the thought, itself. They are right; it's in the mind.
I
have repeated proof that the unseen spirit world exists, (can be sinister) and
reads minds. Their minds; their motives are murky. My faith in God has been
strengthened proportionately with each troubling experience of high
strangeness. If there is a bottom spectrum of unseen evil, as a bottom, there
MUST be a top spectrum of goodness and divine protection.
I have been
snuck into (God's) faith by the back door. Only God knows I need
protection.
One of the offshoots of harassment and other-worldly
experiences be it ghosts, revealing spirit mediums, UFO abductions, is
spiritual growth for the 'victim'. I don't believe that these 'creatures',
harassing, malevolent, deceptive, are spirit guides who evolve our
spirituality, but that such 'growth' is incidental to experiences of high
strangeness.
Fairies, Jinns, and aliens are molesting entities and difficult
and dangerous to 'shake.' But the power of the mind, as a tool; to rebuke
them, positively, in protection, is not enough. Divine protection brings hope.
Physical and psychic resistance?
Pinched nerves, ripped stomach
muscles, infected areas of the mouth, nosebleeds, (Copius and left nostriled).
Nightmares and exhaustion and tremors in the leg are the psychical ailments
I've suffered concurrent with realization and resistance techniques.
I
know it's no coincidence and I'm only marginally paranoid, even after all
these odd experiences. But I feel I've been thwarting the farmer's efforts to
'milk' me and the 'butcher' has been sent to lend ailment spitework, into the
equation. I wish I could cause them BEREAVEMENT.
Anxiety levels
high, nervous late one night, hours before bed, aware of them, intrigued.
Enconched in the ironic sense of their plaguing omnipresence, I posed a
question playfully, internally; "Who was I physically in my previous
lifetime?" I wondered, since they tamper with souls, throughout, and harass,
intergenerately, in families, as well, that they have bothered me in previous
soul experiences, as well as in this one. It was a frivolous, teasing,
tangentially curious question, I asked myself, never realizing that I would
be provided an answer of sorts. I relived it.
That night, I had a
strange breathtakingly vivid dreamlike flash; unlike an evolving dream
scenario, it was a five second long lightning flash, which was so short and
so bright that like lightning, the scenes immediate afterimages have lingered
without revealing the whole landscape. I was in mortal terror, panicked. I was
in heartpounding transit running fast through a series of apartment rooms
whose corner windows overlooked what looked like a second story modern street
scene; cars moved among the parked vehicles.
The sunlight outside was
bright; I was running, dry-mouthed, wide-eyed, and gasping in fear. I fearfully
rounded the street corner and ran past a hall mirror on the wall, before I
reached for the doorknob, in desperate haste to leave the flat. In that
mirror, I caught a glimpse of myself running for my life. As the door opened, my
heart was pounding, and in full flight the scene turned to blackness.
Inside -
The person who ran was me - me in every feeling and nuance and thought, me in
attitudes, likes and inclinations.
Outside - The picture, the lighting
flash afterimage of the person in the mirror was a young girl of twenties,
with blues and blonde hair of medium length, small in stature, pinched thin
features clutching a bright red pocketbook.
I awoke realizing
immediately that my question, seriously considered, had been given,
fractional. Had they imposed these images, or 'retrieved' them form my
subconscious? Was it a lie?
(I was stunned that I was to admit believe
that the personality's nature, is unalterable; that much could be called the
soul.) What troubled me was that I had received a powerful answer on many
levels. The may have monitored "me" in previous lifetimes when I was not "me"
but really still was "me".
Why were they interested in one's soul? Can
they "splinter" the soul and kindle new flames from those sparks to create new
souls for their own purposes; the way they would treat sperm or egg, baby
samples, to create new somatic creatures?
I remember a voice in my
head: "You are an old soul, a very old soul."
When I was nine or
ten, school was immersing and enveloping. Once, during class, in the midst of
grade school, in the fourth grade, during class, I realized that I had floated
out of my body and, looking both ways to see and gauge what reactions my
classmates had to this miracle and discovering none whatsoever, I floated up
in delight and flew around the ceiling of the room. I saw all my classmates
below engaged in animated conversation. Wild joy gripped my heart and I
drifted through the large paned school windows unseen. I flew over buildings,
chimneys, rooftop advertisements, streets, the exhilaration of 'flying felt
deep' in my gut, wide eyed with ecstasy.
Somehow, I was suddenly
sitting, back in class. The teacher questioning meaninglessly and I wondered
how I'd returned. Nobody had known I was gone. I blinked and stared, looking
around, feeling very peculiar; I had left the class, been outside and I knew I
hadn't just merely imagined such a thing. I never mentioned this to anyone.
Not even myself.
TINKERBELL
Giordano Bruno - February 1600
(burned at the stake by Church Bishops for teachings against the Church)
"Innumerable suns exist! Innumerable earths circle around their suns,
no worse and no less inhabited than this globe of ours. For no reasonable mind
can assume that heavenly bodies that may be far more magnificent than ours
would not bear upon them creatures similar or even superior to those upon our
human Earth."
Dr. Gary Lincoff and his wife, Susan were boating on
North Conway Lake in New Hampshire, near the North Conway mines, on May 13,
1998. The paddled into a deep hidden canyon, entering between huge boulders
which formed a narrow gateway. They had been there before and made love in the
wild flowers in a field. They pulled the boat up onto the narrow beach
shadowed by overhanging willows and had a cold lunch of chicken and white
wine. It was a pristine landscape to wander in and dream. Soon they felt the
air vibrate strongly like an explosion's aftershock.
"What in God's
name was that?" Susan asked.
Her husband answered, "I'll bet it's a
shockwave from a dynamite explosion at the North Conway mine."
"But
there was no sound, and we're miles and miles from the mine."
He
thought for a moment, "You're goddamned right."
He climbed the boulder
behind him and he said, "I should be able to figure out what has happened if I
can see out over the lake from up there."
"You'll probably fall and
kill yourself," his wife warned.
After hard climbing he reached the top
which was split and he could look out through a sharp cleft in the rock. Two
large, shiny, round craft floated on the water just beyond the narrow entrance
to the cove. What he had seen was so unbelievable that he scrambled down to
get his wife. Both climbed to the well hidden perspective. Both craft were
fifty to sixty feet wide, about twenty feet thick at the center and fifteen
feet thick at the rim. Round, black-edged ports covered the rim at a distance
of every four feet. On the top sides, hatch covers were open and moving slowly
around its surface were spindly creatures who moved in unison like robots. On
both ships over their heads from a central position was a slowly rotating
hoop-shaped object.
When the hoop reached a point directly opposite the
husband and wife it stopped. So did the creatures. They stared toward the
couple's hiding place and remained motionless.
The husband pulled at
his wife's dress, "Jesus, get down." Both did. They were sure the creatures
had spotted them. They hid until they noticed that a deer below had come to
the water's edge to drink. They hoped that the strange creatures were watching
the deer and they rose for another look. The hoop was rotating once more,
operated by a creature standing below it, who wore a small, scarlet head
covering. All were small and wore close-fitting dark suits and blue
helmets.
One creature placed a shiny green hose in the water, drawing
in water and at the same time discharging something from another
hose.
Again the hoop stopped and all the figures froze. They stared
toward the couple on the rock. Husband and wife ducked and counted to thirty
before they inched up for another look. Two hours later, dazed and confused,
missing time, the couple ambled back into their boat and headed for home. They
were both grim faced and neither spoke for the whole trip back, and the
further they traveled from the lake, the more their amnesia of the incident
grew.
That night, as his son slept, he stole into the bedroom and
removed three books by J.M.Barrie; he felt strongly protective and oddly
repulsed by the idea of Peter Pan, a never-aging figure who comes down from
the sky and floats children out of their bedroom, accompanied by a little ball
of light: Tinkerbell.
AFTERWORD:
Abductions
and their remnant elusive memories have opened all this for me; a confirmed
atheist until I saw aliens float me out of my body, in my bed, at night. Then,
I knew they were interested in an essence I never suspected I had; a soul.
My glimpses into my last lifetime; glimpses afforded me directly by
the entities who trouble me, either imposed, as lies, or retrieved, as truth
tell me that we were inside precisely the SAME, in nuance and predilection and
different, on the outside. That may be the reason we still have the same
unresolved issues; we evolve so slowly, it may be a curse to continue,
painfully, over and over and over just to make a little headway towards our
spiritual goals. Those soul needs are acceptance, forgiveness, and love.
But, here in the flesh, those very spiritual feelings make it easier
to become parasitized by these intruding, nighttime bedroom harassers who are
the occupants of ufos and who stay with us from lifetime to lifetime; like the
dali lama they find us again, early in childhood. Our spiritual powers that
interest and addict them are the very powers we can use to thwart further
attacks, but like spraying for cockroach infestation it must be effective, as
well as be regular, in application.
They infect our auras with
themselves and ride the reincarnation roller coaster with us to avoid the
death they fear and steal the spiritual recycling we have but for the most
part, as a race of entities, are dully unaware of and its amazing
implications. A loving god gives us many lifetimes to refine evolve our souls
and we choose the lessons but these joyriding greys are like discorporate,
incarnate souls stuck to our energies who bring a new meaning to the concept
of a silent invasion.
Paul Schroeder
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