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Part 2
His eyes opened
wide and he shrank back in fear and pulled the blanket over his head. It's not
possible, he thought, and shook his head. On impulse, he threw the blanket
from his head and peered around the corner of the bed, He exposed his whole
head as he stared out of the window. Two pairs of eyes looked back. There was
a tapping on the screen.
He exploded backwards into the bed in panic.
Electric waves of fear ran across his forehead and down his arms. His eyes
rounded in terror. He knew that he had seen them and they had seen him. He was
so full of fear that he could scarcely breathe. "Demons, unholy evil spirit, be gone
in the name of God," He prayed silently.
I could have imagined
it, he thought. But the priest could not bring himself to look again, his fear
was so great. He huddled in the corner of the bed terrified and in agony of a
terrible dilemma: If he didn't look again he would never know if what he saw
was real and his curiosity burned as strongly as his fear. But, if he looked
again and they were still there he knew that he would lose his mind with
fear.
Strangely, he soon fell asleep.
...Relaxation techniques,
slowly bought him to an altered state; under hypnosis, a series of
subconscious motor reflexes, a twitch of a different finger cemented a
conversation with the body, not the mind; the thumb, indicated "Yes", the
middle finger, "No," the pinky, "I (can't) won't answer." This technique would
confront repressed fear, avoidance, or directives to forget, and allow direct
conversation with the unconscious.
By hypnotic suggestion, the body
would answer, meaningfully, even if one fell asleep.
Doctor : "Let's
begin; can we talk about his bad dreams?"
Priest: (film shows quick
flash of thumb;) "Yes"
Doctor: "Go back to the day the two puppets
floated outside the window, and, below consciousness, recall what happened,
that afternoon. Show me that you begin by moving the "yes" finger, and the end
of that recall by moving the "no" finger."
Priest: (film shows "yes"
and "no" twitches)
Doctor: "Good; started and ended. Is there any
unconscious, additional information, the father has not remembered concerning
that afternoon?"
Priest: (finger twitches quickly with the "yes" thumb
movement)
Doctor: "What happened? See it remotely, as if you're in a
projector booth, watching yourself, on a screen; what happened?"
Priest: (increasing stress) "I don't want to answer digit", pinky,
signal.
Doctor: "No? You don't want to tell me? Fine, can you talk to
me orally, tell me what you're feeling?"
Priest: (more negative
finger) Movements with agonized breath.
Doctor: "You refer to this as
October,1999. Whatever happened was long ago. You're safe and in control; are
you reluctant to talk about it because it's too upsetting?"
Priest:
Film records positive finger movement
Doctor: "Freeze the scene and
see part in full frame; like a snapshot? Is it okay?"
Priest: Film
shows a "yes" twitch.
Doctor: "A still slide projected on a faraway
screen; you're up in the projection booth watching the father in the
theatre."
Priest: "As I was looking through the window, the eyes looked
back. Staring back. The eyes are not normal."
Doctor: "Look closer;
what else do you notice?"
Priest: "The face doesn't have any teeth,
it's not a normal face. It's gone, now."
Doctor: "Feel the relief that
the face is gone. Now I have a question for your unconscious to answer by
finger movement. Has any harm been done to the father during the faces'
presence?"
Priest: (records a quick "no" answer)
Doctor: "Now
what happened, later, that night, when you felt, sensed something by your bed?
Was there anything done to the father, physically during that
time?"
Priest: Head is shaking "no" and the finger movement is saying
"yes", softly; "They took my clothes", sadly "They took my priestly
vestments".
Doctor: "Who did?"
Priest: Very agitated, legs
twitching, shoulders twitching. His head shook on a negative
reaction.
Doctor: "Is the "no" for then, or now? You keep shaking your
head "no"."
Priest: "For now".
Doctor: "You don't want to talk
about it?"
Priest: "No".
Doctor: "Do you want to remember it
when you come out of trance?"
Priest: "No".
Doctor: "Do you
want to remember it some other day?"
Priest: "No".
Doctor:
"Below consciousness, I want to ask your hand some questions. Hand in the
course of that encounter, did the father leave the house?"
Priest:
Thumb, positive finger response, "yes".
Doctor: "Was he removed from
the house?"
Priest: (another "yes" response)
Doctor: "Would it
be all right for him to remember the things that happened?"
Priest:
(an animated "no" response)
Doctor: "Without him reliving the
experiences, would it be all right for him to remember what he saw?"
Priest: The little finger jumps repeatedly with "I don't want to
answer" response. (Slowly) I want to see what happened.
Doctor:
"Repeat that, please, say it again".
Priest: "I want to see what
happened".
Doctor: "To avoid reliving; you do not have to relive the
experience, speak of the priest as "He", it is not you, but a picture".
Priest: "He was on line, on a "tour", waiting on line, inside
something large, humid, slowly entering a large carrier ship."
He is
flying high over lush green tree landscape, over rolling tree lined
hills.
He knows that it is night but the fields and countryside below
are lit up as though it were day but he knows it's night because he is
dreaming. For a few brief seconds he sees the green granular nature of the
trees below and a visual exhilaration of flying combined with a sense of peace
and happiness. He marvels at the texture and color and his movement above it.
He is dreaming but he is awake.
He is told by a tourguide, who
is always just out of sight, that he is to wait on line for a tour of the
insides of a country estate. He is numb and is dreaming. But he feels that he
is awake.
He is moving forward, people in front and in back of him,
all adults on a narrow path surrounded by flat, English gardens. It is hot and
humid with the rank smell of soil. People clutch what looks like brochures and
move slowly in a single line, towards the country estate. He feels bored, but
he is mildly interested. A ticket taker sits at the entrance way, on a stool
behind a lectern; He is a slim teenager but as he looks, he turns into a
kindly old man.
Everyone is awake but dreaming.
Inside is a
waiting room; a dull, white room with no adornments and a black floor. Inside,
a dozen or so middle aged men pace nervously. Some speak in brief low voiced
non-sequitors and look worried. Some of the men move towards a buffet table,
strangely empty of food or drink. An unhappy, slight, balding man peeks up at
him from the paper cup he is holding in hand and makes furtive eye contact.
The tour guide, who always remains out of view, now tells him that it
is a cocktail party. He senses an uncomfortable corporate uneasiness in each
face that repels him from the room. He thinks to himself: I'd like to find the
hosts of this party and give them a piece of my mind; no food no drink! What
kind of party is this?
As he starts off to look for the host with that
thought in mind, he is slapped with an emotional wave of terror and remorse.
It is the tour guide again who tells him it would not be a good idea to insult
the host. In the dream, he asks himself , why would it scare me to insult the
host if I have no idea who the host is? But he has the feeling of having
averted jeopardy, he quickly dismissed the idea.
He went back into the
party. Everyone stared at his nakedness.
He blinks and looks again;
many hold and drink from invisible cups and are half dressed. Each man is in
an unhappy jittery dream. He is quickly overwhelmed with the feeling of not
belonging in that room.
Although the tour guide is watching, he sneaks
out into another less crowded smaller room. Free-ego-child-wild and
mischievous glee overcomes him. He drops and darts under a table whose
tablecloth drops to a few inches above the floor. He is underneath. He is
hiding. No one knows. Again he is suddenly gripped with a joyful childishness
that forces his eyes and mouth into contorted joy.
He can hear voices
of the people talking in the room but he feels safe, hidden, draped on all
sides by white cloth. Someone is about to pull the tablecloth up and find him;
the tips of black shoes intrude under the cloth's edge. He reverts,
atavistically; growling electrified, animal like and launches himself,
snarling, forward. It is a dream within a dream.
A bright light and he
is dreaming, but he knows he is awake; He is not awake but moving, climbing up
a steep stairway ladder pathbridge in a very large room, still in line with
people in a guided tour, dreaming awake.
The tour guide, always just
out of view, tells him to keep climbing up a ladder towards a small room at
the top of the stairs.
Someone in front of him dreams, wakes up
dreaming. He looks to his right as he climbs by an enormous domed -curved
window which makes up the whole upper wall.
He is slowly climbing,
feeling very numb. He pauses, stopping the line of climbing people and places
his arms on a curved railing where the staircase meets the bottom of the
window. Cupping his chin on his hands, he tried to understand what he was
seeing but he was so numbed that what he saw didn't affect him,
emotionally.
Outside is blackness. The Earth and the Moon are far to
the right portion of the glass, the Earth swimming in blue-white haze, except
for a large red area which he saw as the desert of North Africa, or the
Arabian peninsula. Far away, violet splashes of nebulae and points of red
pinpoint starlight intersperse with millions of white stars.
Chin in
hands, he leaned over and said in a sad, wistful, admiring tone, "These people
who live at this estate have some view; "Wow what a view!"
The tour
guide, always just out of view, was startled and quickly changed the scene to
that of a unidimensional English garden landscape.
Chin in hands,
still looking out of the window, he said again, but this time looking at the
garden landscape, They do have a nice view."
The tour guide was
startled to hear him repeat, and not realizing that the scene of the garden
had already worked to distract him, over reacted.
He was thrown into a
vivid emotional ecstasy.
The ladder path transformed into a delicately
patterned, dazzlingly ornate inlaid wood design cryptic and deep in beauty and
complexity. He was forced to kneel and examine it, and turned away from the
window.
Powerful awe, love, admiration and godlike reverence flashed
through his mind and body, at the wood-inlay staircase, suspended in air,
lushly constructed in multi-colored wood. An awe, tingling through his skin,
thrilled him.
He felt a powerful, spiritual deep love for the
construction, the unknown artist, the wood pattern, and became so absorbed,
that he forgot what he had seen outside the window.
The sleeping line
of climbing people was stopped by his fawning and repeated examination of the
simple metal staircase. He repeatedly retraced his steps to further examine
it.
The tour guide, always just out of sight, had had enough. A
paternal, parental impatient voice said in his head, "just keep going; it will
be there for you to see when you get back." But things change in dreams he
tells himself and does not trust that it will be there again for him when he
returns.
The guide had made the staircase the unrightful recipient of
the awe, rather then the scene outside the window, so that he would not
remember; but when he woke he did remember.
He awoke exhausted, with a
dull headache and a nose bleed; more tired getting up then he had been going
to bed.
He opened the door, slowly and peeked down the hall; there was
no one in evidence. He threw on his red-striped, tattered bathrobe, full of
holes, and barefoot, stole out into the hallway, leaving his door barely ajar.
He went to the stairwell; chose the second floor, and peeked up and down the
hallway from his vantage point behind a hinge of the stairway door. It was
five fifteen a.m. He bolted quickly down the hall and turning quickly in
reverse, in three swift movements, picked up, first, from one doormat, a
bottle of fresh milk, from a second, a small bag of bakery delivered fresh
rolls, and finally scooped up a morning; paper, under his arm, from a third.
His heart pounding, lest he be detected, he ran up, breathless, to the fourth
floor his stolen breakfast in hand. He locked the door.
He heard, in
his head a voice and a buzz. It was a slight ring in his left ear. that odd
inner ear ringing tone, one hears sometimes for no apparent reason.
Concentrate on it, it gets louder; pay no attention, it dissipates. The
ringing in his ear got louder and he shook his head to stop it. It was, he
thought, clanging loud enough for the neighbors to hear it coming from his
head. He wildly moved his head to stop it. It grew louder. The sound moved
deeper into his head and melted into a humming vibration. The whole left side
of his head was humming.
He heard a voice which began quietly, but he
couldn't understand anything, not a single word. He began to pray silently to
St. Jude, as he stood there alone with a voice grinding out sounds in his
head. His heart pounded and his jaw fell slightly open as the stolen groceries
fell from his grasp to the floor. He held his hands to his ears, supporting
his head, and tried not to scream and run.
He thought people in insane
asylums who heard voices could be like him or him like them.
He was
climbing to the small room at the top of the ladder. He was dreaming awake.
The high school basketball game was in the last quarter; the crowd's
howl and the tattoo of the drums from the drill team seemed miles away. He and
she had left the game and now sat on the sweet smelling lawn of the school, in
the night listening to the sounds of the game behind them.
He was
cloaked in blackness; dreaming a memory: she was in his arms; soft, dark.,
long brown hair brushed his face; coquettish liquid dark eyes looked deeply
into his. He returned her gaze with a passionate, loving sensuality. She held
his hand; it was cool and slender. A mysterious and provocative incense
coursed through his blood and made him dizzy with desire for her. He moaned
and leaned closer.
She pressed her slim body close to his and he
lowered his eyes closing his lids, flushed with lust.
She suddenly
stiffened and withdrew, and he sensed a wave of disgust and disdain from her
wash over him; he was crushed; why had the sweetness of the dream soured?
She withdrew, backwards into the blackness. The girl in his dream
stared at him; in her hands was a funnel-shaped cup, attached to a tube
receptacle. He was hurt and puzzled and said "Is that all, Is that all you
want?"
Before the darkness came and swallowed him he realized that her
coldness was the coldness of one running an experiment; caring more about the
outcome then the methods used.
Even though he was dreaming he knew he
was awake and he struggled with a feeling if hopelessness in the dawning
realization of his experience.
Cold, dispassionate, unblinking eyes
recorded both psychic and anatomical responses; they registered his emotional
responses, categorizing, summarizing, analyzing and judging him. The alien
administered a progressive personality assessment, a standard psychological
measurement exam which had more subtle discernment and calibration of the soul
than any earthbound measurement.
The creature stared directly into the
priest's eyes and induced a delusional thought system; a gauntlet of
nightmares, a funhouse of terrors. A series of three-dimensional scenarios in
crystal clear virtual reality were projected into the priest's mind. His
reactions, nuances of feelings to the projected visions, were carefully
registered and recorded. The aliens had already found a genetic site for dissocial
psychopaths and for people of moral goodness.
First he was
pushed into a small room with white walls and a red. bloody, gory floor. In
the center of the room, back to the viewer were two butchers, white coats
splashed with blood, busily chopping infants into butcher cuts. He was urged
to enter the room but his mind rebelled in horror and fear and he refused. The
horror of the chopped infants saddened him, tightened his stomach and filled
him deeply with fear. He trembled in terror. "Who in God's name could bring
himself to do such an evil thing?"
He was thrust into another scene; a
rubble-strewn street with burnt shells of vehicles, some upside down
surrounded by shells of fragmented buildings which were precariously perched.
In the background smoke and flame issued all around. At his feet, injured,
partly buried in the rubble was a frail old woman with a kerchief covering her
head. She weakly gestured for help. He knelt beside her, but his eyes were on
the building above him which began to weaken and shift. Fear of death
overcomes him and in agony he runs from the scene, leaving her behind. He is
stricken with grief and guilt over the decision, but he feels grateful for
having escaped unscathed.
All of this is carefully registered and
recorded. Again he is thrust into another scene, the small, dark creature
staring fixedly into his eyes. He hears the repeated cracking sound of a whip
on flesh overlaid with screaming pleas of mercy. It is just around the
corner.
Shrieks and howls in loud, deep agony accompany satanic
laughter. Fear crawls down his arms and legs. He is psychically prodded to
look within. A tall, muscular, athletic young man with black hair is writhing
in pain, chained by arms and legs to a wall-mounted wood cross. A black-hooded
inquisitor, demonically laughing delivers loud, whip-snapping cracks onto the
screaming man' s back who pleads for mercy in fervent agony. Blood and tissue,
noisily splatter the walls at each stroke.
The priest's mind shrank
back in mortal terror, disgust and raw horror.
Next, a thick-bodied,
squat, gangster-type sat at a table playing solitaire. With a growl rich and
deep with menace he picked up a hand gun and told the priest that he was going
to kill him. The priest nodded in silent placation and tacit agreement. The
gangster, never taking his eyes from his cards placed the gun at the far end
of the table close to the priest. The killer assured the priest that no matter
what the priest did, he would definitely murder him. He was urged to go for
the gun. The priest's mind eye measured the distance between the gangster's
hand and the gun and his own relative distance from the gun; he decided it was
probably a trap and did not go for the gun.
The next scenario - a
beautiful woman, a Hollywood femme fatale with short skirt, long white gloves,
very long legs and dark hair told him that she was in danger and needed him to
go with her to help her. He patently refused, smelling danger, seeing through
the disguise. She promised him her body if he would help her. He abjectly
refused. The alien introduced a promissory image of her long limbs
lasciviously intertwined with his. He still refused.
The next psychic
measurement was for honesty and guilt; he was left in a room with money piled
high on a table. He was urged to fill his cassock pockets and he did. He as
made to feel the slow burn of shame.
At the end of the exam, bereft of
strength, disheartened, deeply depressed, he sat in the spacecraft drained and
exhausted. At this point the alien applied an artistic touch to the delusion.
It gave closure and diverted the priest's mind, but it also mercifully
alleviated his soul's suffering. Each main character from each scenario filed
in one by one with knowing smiles and sat at a table in front of him. He was
at the center of a "Mission Impossible" scenario.
With the dawning
realization that these people were simply players, conspiring to fool him, two
things happened; surprise at the complexity of the dream, and awe, at the
enormity of the staging, by seeming strangers. This revelation replaced the
angst this series of visions had provoked. It also underlined the alien's
total duplicity; when the alien saw the priest's slow smile and lightening of
spirit he brought him out of the delusion and back into blackness. When his
alarm rang, he swung his feet onto the floor.
"Dreadful dream," he
thought "My god, what a dreadful dream; someone was butchering babies;
horrible dream."
Interdimensional Thieves
Monday -
January
Dr Gary Lincoff sat in his office writing in his personal
diary. The fans seem to be working; either the little critters can't
materialize, project invisibly, because of the swirling floor fans and ceiling
fan, of they're afraid that they'll be "sucked up", or it may be that the
electromagnetic "inference", set up somehow thwarts them. I don't believe that
the invisible negative - though entities (the "Jinns" who give me nightmares
with horrible scenarios,) are the same entities who "separated" my astral body
from my physical body, although I did awake later, again, to note that the
ceiling fan I'd left on had been shut off, and I awoke, drenched. So maybe the
fan is a partial defense, but against WHAT??!
I had a peculiar nighttime
experience of high strangeness. I 'awoke', (out of my body) in darkness by the
hall steps just outside my bedroom. I thought I was, perhaps, in transit back
from the bathroom. As I stood there, wrapped in darkness, something; some
small hand-puppet-like creature jumped on the back of my neck, gripping the
back and snugly, moving up, positioned itself into the hollow of the nape of
my neck, clinging tightly, snuggled deeply, holding on with a clamp like
grip, warm small and unseen.
My hair stood straight up and I found I could
not raise my arms to remove it, despite quick wrenching spasms of my head,
neck and shoulders to dislodge it's grip form the back of my neck. I was
paralyzed with panic, aware of this evil strange tiny creature holding fast to
my neck, and again realized that my gyrations and twitches and spins were
useless; it clung on the more tightly. Again I panicked realizing my arms were
not working, and the creature had nestled snugly and held on, strange, silent
and warmly stuck fast!
I realized that I was just outside the bedroom
door and ran into the bedroom yelling, "Susan! Susan! What's on my neck?! What
is it?! Can you see it?! What's on my NECK!!?" I writhed and danced. I awoke,
in bed, (in my body), with my wife, Susan, shaking me; leaning over me,
looking at me with concern in her eyes. "You were having a bad dream," she
said "I had to wake you."
I realized that the tampering
interdimensional "leak" of critters and my astral body - were more insidious
and "tampering: could occur when I was asleep and "wandering".
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