FROM: Matt
DATE: Mon, 5 Jul 2004 16:16:43 EDT 
TO: Abductions 
SUBJECT: Experiences 

I posted this about a week ago hoping someone with similar experiences might help me figure this thing out. During the past week since I posted it- the "symptoms" have stopped (Thank God) but some vivid dreams came back last night, this time about "vampires". Perhaps this is all "in my head" like several people have said, maybe I am crazy, I'm willing to accept that if that's the case. but my brother insists I am having "repressed memory of alien abduction". I want to pursue it because I want to know the truth. I was "ill" for almost 3 months, and missed almost 4 weeks work. Viruses just don't last that long and my doctors "can't find anything wrong with me" although I feel as if I've had the wind knocked out f me, I'm only 40 years old!! I'm VP of a large corporation, and none of this "fits" I have to find out. I'm not making this up. I don't drink smoke, or take any drugs other than what my doctors give me. I'm not afraid to be called crazy or lose my job anymore, I have got to know what's happened to me. I HAVE TO FIND OUT, FIN THE TRUTH. I don't know why, and can't explain it, but have a VERY strong overwhelming urge to visit this site and others like it to attempt to contact people who claim they've been abducted. this "feeling" tells me there are people that have visited this site that are nuts, or jokers, but I also feel like there are some who are totally sincere and came here like I did. If ANYONE can help explain all this to me please contact me. 

Reported by Matt from adsl-68-88-85-25.dsl.rcsntx.swbell.net (68.88.85.25) on Thursday, July 01, 2004 at 6:52PM : 

For some time now I have been having odd dreams about storms, flying, and being taken into room with doctors who are "working" on me. I searched the archives looking for similar experiences to mine and here is what I came up with, as reading other's experiences helped me to recall my own. I list these in hopes someone might help me deal with whatever this is that has haunted me so this past year, as I do so want it to just go away if I can't expose it and deal with it on my own... 

1. Feelings of being "watched" at night, esp. when totally alone. Sometimes I'm not afraid because I'm very tired, other times I'm so afraid I want to leave the house.
2. Fear of sleeping, which comes from #1.
3. Fear of being outside at night, camping, esp. in the woods away from other people.
4. Change in behavior since this February, dramatic mood swings, erratic thoughts, anger, fear, etc.
5. Compelled to watch the skies, and keep my camera handy, to seek out people with similar experiences, and compelled to look at UFO sites (I don't believe in UFO's or aliens)
6. Think about my dreams all the time
7. Very tired all the time, lethargic sometimes, as if I've lost sleep, although I've had a lot of sleep and make a point to get sleep if I can. (8-10 hours or more)
8. Memory loss, even simple things, words, times, dates, places, and names.
9. My dog "barks" at the wall, at nothing.
10. I wake at odd hours, esp. at 2-3 AM feeling very awake.
11. I have heard voices, but cannot make out what they are saying.
12. Headaches, w/nausea sometimes. 
13. Weeks of diarrhea or constipation, nothing I take helps.
14. Dramatic temperature changes, cold & sweaty, or hot & dry.
15. My doctors cannot find anything wrong after doing series of blood work & other tests. "There's nothing wrong with me" they say.
16. Recurring dreams of tornadoes, storms
17. Recurring dreams of being in a medical room on cold flat surface, naked, and "doctors" putting things in my body, esp. my right leg which hurts all the time. The "doctors" are in medical type clothing. cannot see their faces, and usually wake up kicking at them 
18. Diagnosed with sciatic nerve damage (right leg) 
19. Experience laying in bed frozen/paralyzed, seeing light, esp. pinpoint lights of green and red, bright lights, voices, and then sleeping with floating sensations, flying sensations, before "dreams" begin
20. Wondering if I'm nuts or part of a large group of people who are being "taken" by someone or something for some purpose they are not being made aware of.
21. Also, I recall now I have developed a "twitching" syndrome which at times begins to be more of a trembling or shaking. Doctors, again can find no cause for it.