Posted by j.r. (65.80.156.43) on August 03, 2002 at 03:26:00:
In Reply to: What's your take on this? posted by Josh on August 03, 2002 at 00:55:58:
sorry i didn't attatch my email address, but there is something that i wanted to share with you. for years, as a child, i had a feeling that something about me was a little different than other children. i would hear things that they couldn't. i knew things that they had no concept of. there were many nights that i would find myself in bed shivering and scared for no apparent reason.
it wasn't until i was about 11 or 12 that i had an "encounter" that i could actually remember. in this instance, i vividly recall the feeling of being engulfed by a light that seemed to come from my bedroom window. the light was cold and seemed to have mass (as if one were immersed in a luminous liquid). it lifted me from my bed and carried me towards the window. from that point my memory becomes a little more vague...a sort of compilation of images of both past and present. i recall figures that i found unusual performing some sort of tests on me; during which i had no feeling of fear, pain, or any indication that the process was unfamiliar to me (as a child who had visited the doctor's office and knew what to expect).furthermore, there are recurring memories of a "classroom" of sorts that i would take part in. along with several other children, i would be instructed on various topics (the subject matter, i cannot recall). unfortunately, my memory deteriorates from that point. in fact, i don't even remember a "trip" back to the safety of my bed.
as one might imagine, i have as of yet to discuss this memory with anyone. a large portion of my day to day business depends on my consumer's perception of me. i have, however suffered from insomnia for approximately 12 years (i'm 27 now), and every doctor i've seen has suggested that the catalyst for my disorder is psychological...as if something happened at night to disturb my sleeping pattern permanently.
honestly, i don't know why i chose to share this topic with you except for the fact that it eases my mind to finally share it with someone. i don't assume that it will bring you any comfort in the future. my fear now, as an adult, is to have another of these recurring nightmares in which i shall be privy to full recollection of said events...or worse...to find out that it was all true.