Posted by J Edward (205.245.65.2) on August 07, 2001 at 14:09:39:
I'm writing in hope of an answer to a problem I have been afraid to tell anyone in person.
For the past several years I have been having the same nightmare at least 4 or 5 times a month, and recently they have increased in frequency. I am beginning to wonder if this is not a repressed memory of an abduction. Without going into too much detail here I keep dreaming of when I was 15 or 16 and walking home late one evening through a field (which I did many times after band practice). That part is the clearest in my memories and in my reoccurring dream. But then in the dream I am walking along and suddenly I am bathed in a very bright light and a loud humming noise. The light is so bright I can not tell where it is coming from nor shut it out by covering my eyes, everything is just bright white and painful to my entire body. The next thing I can recall from the dream is that of being very frightened and restrained so I can not move any part of my body. Then I recall smells and sounds I cannot describe in good detail here but they are completely unknown to me. The last thing I can remember in the dream is a hot searing pain in my forehead and that is when the dream ends and I wake up. Every time I wake up from this nightmare I'm covered in sweat and feel as though I've ran a 2 minute mile. So you can imagine how this effect my sleep and my own sense of sanity.
Now here is a bit of evidence I have discovered recently. A couple of nights ago I again had the same dream and as usual I woke up with a start, panting and sweating. I realized that I was holding my hands against my forehead where the searing pain is in my dream. Though there was no pain when I awoke, I was still reacting to the phantom pain in my dream. I got out of bed and went into the bathroom to wash off, I looked at my forehead in the mirror where the pain was.
That's when I noticed the old crescent shaped scar on my forehead between my eyebrows. It's been there since I could remember I thought it was an just an old acne scar and have never paid much attention to it. It is small and not very noticeable unless you are real close to me. Plus I wear glasses and the nose bridge obstructs most of it. Standing in the bathroom I thought "It's just an old acne scar" then I kind of did a face inventory and found that I didn't have any other acne scars other than that one. I got to thinking and realized that I never had a big skin problem much less acne, so why do I keep recalling this one specifically as an acne scar? The next day I called my Mother and asked her if I ever had an acne problem and she said no and that I rarely had any type of skin problem as far as she could recall. I then asked her if she knew of the crescent shaped scar on my forehead (since Moms know every square inch of their children) She said she remembered that one quite well. She told me that one night I came in very late from band practice, and that I had mumbled something about being real tired and feeling sick and that I stumbled to my bedroom. Fearing that I was real sick (or drunk) she followed me to my room. When she walked in I was already asleep on the bed without even taking my jacket or shoes off. She was worried that I might have been drinking so she leaned over my face to smell my breath.
That's when she noticed the bleeding cut on my forehead. She cleaned it up with some peroxide and that was it. She said she assumed that since I didn't smell like a brewery that I must have gotten in to a fight and was just being a gloomy teenager so she never brought it up in conversation, and since I seemed fine the next few days she forgot about it.
So that's my story, a bit longer than I hoped but it feels good to finally share it. There are many other details to the dream and things I am starting to remember but I just cannot find the words for it now. I would like to go to a Hypnotist and see if there is more to the dreams and possibly stop them since it's starting to negatively effect my life. But the sessions are much to expensive for me now since I am "in between jobs" at the moment.
So one of my questions is does this fit any patterns of an abduction? And what should I do next? I have not read any accounts of forehead wounds but I have not read a great deal about the subject due to fear of the truth I guess. I'm not even sure I want to know. But I have to rid myself of this before I go off the deep end soon.
JWE