i asked to be shown

Reported by NINA from 207-244-165-209-dhcp.mia.fl.atlanticbb.net (207.244.165.209) on Sunday, March 23, 2008 at 7:27AM :

i remember many experiences conscious, subconscious, and unconscious since i was an infant. the first incident i had was when i was in a crib. i remember clear as day what happened. i even remember two songs that were playing in the background. "nobody does it better" and "u light up my life". for years, anytime i hear those tunes i immediately start to cry. i was in my crib and wanted milk. i cried out but nobody came. so i climbed my crib to get out and tried to jump off the rail. something helped me down because i basically slowly landed gracefully on my feet as if i were carried down. the music playing in the room... ill never forget that day. if it wasnt real, then why do i feel it so much that i cry whenever i hear those songs?

anyways, throughout my life i have always questioned beyond physical realms. i have always been perceptive, and psychic. i have had extremely vivid dreams my entire life. of flying, of falling, of being chased, of the spirit world, of rape and death onto others but through me, of symbolic content, of meeting GOD if there is one...

my biggest quest is truth. especially truth about "GOD" and the answers i need to feel complete... a few years ago my guru mother gave me a gift. it later revealed to be a mandala type object. this was during a time of constant contemplation and confusion over my existence and GODs existence. i had no prior knowledge of mandalas which is why i didnt know what it was, besides, it was a silver ornament type of object that she found on the floor and the only reason she gave it to me is because i went to visit her and couldnt put it down... i researched it until i found mandalas are ancient geometry. representing how everything is interconnected.

well over the last few years i have collected specific jewelry to wear together on a neclace like pieces to a puzzle. i was already wearing an om symbol and the prayer for compassion so this finding was just another puzzle piece...

i was at an all time low emotionally from a failed relationship and from all my questions about life. so i spontaneously went on a west coast tour with some fellow musicians for over a month. just up and left. it would be the first time i traveled that far for that long. upon my travels i met a woman named khalia. which she said was aramaic for "healer". she was wearing this neclace/stone that drew me in. we spoke for a while. we both felt familiar to each other and spoke about that too. a few minutes later she proceded to take off her neclace and hand it to me. i asked her why and she said "because they told me to give it to you." i was so drawn to this stone. i held it in my hand and became a little light headed. she explained it was the stone. i accepted her gift. she explained that it was given to her by native indians and the name of the stone was moldavite. she said i would know what to do with it and to not be scared. after speaking for a while we hugged and she said "it was nice seeing you again." i agreed. when i walked outside, i put the neclace and began to cry. she warned me of this reaction.

the next town was flagstaff arizona and the first store i went into was a book/stone store ironically enough. i did not look for this store. i stumbled upon it after seperating from my group.

i purchased a book on moldavite and began reading. for any of you who dont know what moldavite is... it is the only known gem quality stone of extraterrestrial origin. it came when a meteor hit the earth over 15 billion years ago. it is a rare stone. some people even think of it as the same stone in the holy grail cup.

anyways, after reading this book i understood that receiving this gift from a woman named healer, was no coincidence especially since this stone has major healing properties amongst other amazing awakening aspects. one thing in particular, it is used as a gateway to communicate with otherworldly beings and energies.

a lot of things occured on my trip across the west coast. the people i met, receiving answers to questions, literally calling a horse with my mind and it came to visit me.

upon returning home... i prepared for sleep one evening in the studio of a friends home. a few friends were scattered throughout the house. before i fell into a deep sleep, i placed the moldavite upon my third eye and said aloud "show me".

that evening i dreamt of something very vivid. i was guided up a flight of stairs by a friend named nate. he said, i want you to meet someone. so i followed. there was a man at the top of the stairs sitting. so we didnt really speak, and somehow i layed my head down on his lap and he began to massage my face and head. i kept feeling this wierd sensation behind my head but i ignored it and when i finally reached back to feel the back of my head, i realized i was touching my brain. my hands were bloody and i got up and ran away. the next scene was me in a dark lit bathroom.. i turned to look in the mirror and i had black tape across my eyes yet i could see myself and two beings behind me who's eyes were also taped and they were not human although i cannot tell you what they looked like. they were dark, one tall one shorter and they were watching me watch myself in the mirror. i had vision despite the taped eyes which didnt really scare me i was kind of fascinated. then my eyes opened and i awoke in a way that felt like i was stuck inside another demension. i could see my surroundings but i could not move my body only my head. my vision was not of my own it was something else. as i turned my head to the right i began to hear simultaneous whispers getting louder and louder until it was so loud it filled my head and i could feel my head jerking around like part of me accepted and the other did not. after it becoming so loud i fell unconscious again and woke myself up saying over and over "nate, someone's here, nate, someone's here" i awoke and ran out of the room and woke nate up who was in the next room telling him the story. the next few days, i did not enter the studio and moved into another room. the animals in the house became very protective of me over the next few days. it felt very strange. cant even call it an invasion because i invited it. but i do feel violated. i cant tell if i was given something or if something was taken from me. i have felt very confused since and distraught because i have no answer about what really happened to me that night.

so many things have occurred. can anyone shed light on this particular story for me?

i have also seen strange objects in the sky on two separate occasions before this occurrance. and have been very sensitive to all energies my entire life.