weird dreams - memories

I was always my mothers night problem, I absolutely hated to sleep in my dark room. When I was younger I know I didn't remember much of what would happen, but my mom said I would wake up in odd places and I was usualy screaming and crying. When I got older these strange things lessened, I believe it to be because I started moveing ALOT. Though things would still happen from time to time. I've been told I have sleep paralysis, but I've always remembered during sleep paralysis the expeirience was always different. Different colors, sonds, feelings, different shadows. I can't realy see during these moments of being paralyzed, all I can see is luminateing colors. The most recent experience of sleep paralysis, I remember hearing a voice, that sounded like a young boy. I heard out of no where, I'm not a demon, then it felt as though my head was flushed and I ciuldnt move. I remember that night I was reading on my patio at about 5ish. Next I remember I woke up in my bathroom It was midnight. I always seem to wake up with long cuts, and what looks like burn dots that form triangles. I usualy don't remember what happens in that lost time, but mabye when I remember something that seem conpletely insane out of no where, it could be me remembering something. Over the many years in my short life, I've remembered some strange things. I've written many ideals, and descriptions if you will, of places and beings. Many ideas I may have been told make little sense to me, but apperantly, there is so much more out there than we know. So much more than we want to believe.